Thursday, October 9, 2014

Goodbye Wan

Every where....
I would have followed you....
But where you are now,
I can't, it's not something that I can do.
Goodnight, sleep tight.
Rest well my beloved.
We will be all right.
We have got everything covered.

Gratitude

Having spent a few hours at the emergency unit early this morning really humbled the already humbled me. Listening to the doctor breaking bad news to the other patients near my bed.....I realised that my problem is not as serious as them and for that I should be thankful. Am going to make it a habit to find something to be grateful for even during trying times coz there are...plenty of them. God bless us with so much, so much than what we ask for....if only we look hard enough.

Goodbye Boys

My boys
I have many.
Most of the time
they are naughty
and also very smelly.
They like to make me mad
and also very upset.
With their attitude that is
oh so very bad.
But amidst all that
my boys are caring.
Always ask about my wellbeing.
And they are also hardworking.
Just talking about them
I feel like crying.
Dearest boys...
Please remember
Study hard
And be good forever.
Eventhough I will not be here
But you will be in my heart forever....

Keep Moving

God never promise that life is going to be easy,
But you can make it if you want it to be.
Just keep on moving and everything will be okay,
As i will not leave you for i am here to stay....

Reunion

The morning after...
Can still hear the laughter.
The intial fear...
Didn't even come near.
Me think we should do it more in the future.

Takut Lagi

A year ago...after waiting for nearly 5 hours, i went into the dentist room.
Me: Errr doc...sempat ke nak cabut geraham bongsu ni. Doc nak pegi sembahyang jumaat kan?
Doc: Boleh...tapi kena tggu ubat bius ni jalan. Ambik masa sikit. (Tgn dah pegang jarum nak suntik and my legs went all jelly at the sight of it).
Me: Kalau mcm tu, x pelah Doc. Nantilah. Kang x sempat pulak doc nak sembahyang (yg sbnrnya rasa cuak dah, kang dek nak cpt, dia x tggu terus cabut...aiyooo sure sakit)
Doc: Ehhh...punya lama awak tggu, x jadi pulak dah.
Me: Yalah dek lama tunggu...dari saya berani, sekarang dah hilang keberanian. Dah jadi takut balik. X pelah.
Terus bangun and balik....

Maleficent

I like the message in Maleficent so much coz that's how i look at people. Bad people is good people first...something happened and the way they reacted or responded will make them become either bad or a better person. And even if you choose to take revenge and let hatred consume you....the fact is you can still change as per the malay saying...balik ke pangkal jalan. God is forgiving and we are merely humans, so no worry. Selagi masih bernyawa pintu taubat masih terbuka.

Bored

I thought I am strong,
Boy...I was so wrong.
It was not like a song,
I should have known it all along.

Hurt

Saying sorry is way..way too easy.
When people are hurt, it's the wound that u can't see,
It hurts and aches... and linger for quite sometime...really.
For things to be normal again....well it remains a probability.

Heiqal

In this world...he is one of my favourite boy,
He came into the world bringing me pure joy.
Never get into trouble and oh so obedient,
Very quiet and happy, not to mention..brilliant.
Sometime I wonder whatever happen to his twin,
The happines they'll bring me...i just could not imagine.
Whatever it is....to God I'm thankful.
For giving me lots and for that I'm so grateful.

** PUISI BJ HABIBIE UNTUK ISTRINYA, AINUN **

** PUISI BJ HABIBIE UNTUK ISTRINYA, AINUN **
Sebenarnya ini bukan tentang kematianmu, bukan itu. ..
Karena, aku tahu bahwa semua yang ada pasti menjadi tiada pada akhirnya, ...
dan kematian adalah sesuatu yang pasti ...
dan kali ini adalah giliranmu untuk pergi, aku sangat tahu itu ....
Tapi yang membuatku tersentak sedemikian hebat, ..
adalah kenyataan bahwa kematian benar-benar dapat memutuskan kebahagiaan dalam diri seseorang, sekejap saja, lalu rasanya mampu membuatku menjadi nelangsa setengah mati, hatiku seperti tak di tempatnya, dan tubuhku serasa kosong melompong, hilang isi ....
Kau tahu sayang, rasanya seperti angin yang tiba-tiba hilang berganti kemarau gersang ...
Pada airmata yang jatuh kali ini, aku selipkan salam perpisahan panjang, ..
pada kesetiaan yang telah kau ukir, pada kenangan pahit manis selama kau ada, ...
aku bukan hendak mengeluh, tapi rasanya terlalu sebentar kau disini ...
Mereka mengira aku lah kekasih yang baik bagimu sayang, ..
tanpa mereka sadari, bahwa kaulah yang menjadikan aku kekasih yang baik ..
mana mungkin aku setia padahal memang kecenderunganku adalah mendua, tapi kau ajarkan aku kesetiaan, sehingga aku setia, kau ajarkan aku arti cinta, sehingga aku mampu mencintaimu seperti ini ...
Selamat jalan, ..
Kau dari-Nya, dan kembali pada-Nya, ...
kau dulu tiada untukku, dan sekarang kembali tiada ...
selamat jalan sayang, ..
cahaya mataku, penyejuk jiwaku, ...
selamat jalan, ...
calon bidadari surgaku ...
- HABIBIE -

Friend

How are you dear friend?
I heard you are unwell.
Our meet up you didn't attend,
Thought you'll bring your creme caramel.
Dear friend, please, please take it easy,
You are not that strong like you used to be.
Hang on in there and we will pray for you,
May God grant you health and not forgetting...happiness too.

Why

There are so many things i dont understand,
I tried but it's hard to comprehend.
Especially when it had all been planned,
Why oh why must the holidays end??

KEKASIH

KEKASIH
Akan ku pintal buih-buih
menjadi tali
mengikatmu
akan kuanyam gelombang-gelombang
menjadi hamparan
ranjang tidurmu
akan kutenun awan gemawan
menjadi selendang
menudungi rambutmu
akan kujahit bayu gunung
menjadi baju
pakaian malammu
akan kupetik bintang timur
menjadi keronsang
menyinari dadamu
akan kujolok bulan gerhana
menjadi lampu
menyuluhi rindu
kan kurebahkan matari
menjadi laut malammu
menghirup sakar madumu
kekasih, hitunglah mimpi
yang membunuh realiti
dengan syurga ilusi
Usman Awang
(1971)

Takut

Mana tumpahnya kuah kalau x ke nasi. Lil sis just called telling story abt le father. Entah berapa kali ke klinik gigi tapi balik masih lagi x bercabut gigi tu. At least me and lil sis sekali je cabut lari, lepas tu berani jugak pergi and cabut. Yang ni lagi teruk. Last2 mak kata "Meh sini, Mah cabut. Cucu2 semua Mah jugak yg cabut." Rela pulak ayah tu. Adoiii...mak ..ayah..cucu2 tu gigi susu. Gigi susu dan gigi kekal ni lain. Geraham pulak tu....aiish kang x nak sakit jadik lagi sakit. So jgnlah salahkan kami sebab penyakit takutkan doktor ini diwarisi dari ayah kami ya..askar pencen tu...T____T

Friend

Dear friend, don't you worry,
For Allah SWT is the most merciful and gracious.
Be patience and for yourself...don't you ever feel sorry,
For He will test and try His precious.

Kau

Nun disana kau rasa kau menderita,
Walhal sebenarnya Tuhan menitipkan bahagia.
Cuma disebabkan kita manusia biasa,
Maka kadang-kadang kita terlupa,
Diasak oleh perasaan yang meluahkan berbagai-bagai rasa.
Tapi tak mengapa...tawakkal dan redha itu pegangan kita.
Apatah lagi dengan kepercayaan kita bahawa Tuhan itu Yang Maha Esa.
Apapun yang diberi itu...hikmahnya mendekatkan kita kepadanya.

Hati oh Hati

Permasalahan hati?
Ini masalah serius sekali,
Kerana hati amat sukar dimengerti.
Kadang begitu, terkadang begini.
Makanya dilarang bermain api,
Kerna dikhuatiri terbakar diri.

Apek and Me

The story of me and Apek. Well not really a story but just another example how i went and get myself attached to people. Well Apek is an old man that i used to see stationed along jalan kuching near the segambut roundabout. I first saw him way back in 1994...i think. Apek offers tyre changing service for motorbike. He'll be there until late at night. Sometime when we drove home atound midnight...he will still be there. I always wonder whether he has a family or not. Maybe he has a wife who likes to nag..that's why he didn't go home and other sorts of possibilities were created by this imaginative mind of mine. And when i came back from UK, otw back home...i looked for him. When i saw him..there was this huge sigh of relief...for i felt that by him being there, nothing's really changed. Everything is just as how it is supposed to be. It's the same when i came back from Sabah...when i didn't see him, there's this feeling of longing. Turned out he is now stationed at Caltex still in Jln Kuching. But this time he looked so old and sick. His legs looked bad....could be because of diabetes. The people at the petrol station told that he couldn't eat or drink lots of things. Went over to him once but didn't get to ask his name. Instead he was surprised to see me and when i came over again to see him...he said.."lu lagi". After that i didn't dare to go near him again. It was so sad seeing him like that...alone, sick and nowhere to go. I even saw him sleeping there most of the time. It makes one appreciate one's life more, i think. I still look out for him especially when i need to pump fuel. I always try to make it a point to go to that petrol station...

You and Me

I called you handsome , you called me pretty.
If I call you abang, can you call me baby?
How about kanda, then dinda i'll be.
Naaahh i'll call you 'my dear', so you can call me 'honey'.


Aiyyyyoooo kok boring yang amat ini taklimat....kan dah merepek gue.
‪#‎guememangsukemakankerepek‬

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

This is the story about a guy who is not allowed to hold or touch anything sharp at the kampung anymore. Once upon a time, it was Hari Raya and a guy brought his family to his wife's kampung as he normally do every year. It was very hot that year and it was a day before raya. Everyone was busy cooking the lemang, rendang, kuah kacang and nasi impit. Nearing the breaking fast, the guy's twin daughters wanted the "air kelapa". The guy's wife said that she will plucked some later. Unknown to the wife, the guy went and tried to pluck using a "pengolan" aka "galah". When the wife saw him, she went to supervise and when she saw that the husband managed to pluck a few, she left to finish her own work. It was not long after that when suddenly, one of the twin came crying while yelling "Papa...Papa". Thinking that the husband got knock by a falling coconut and was unconscious, the wife rushed to him. She was so relieved to see the husband standing until she saw blood oozing from his forehead. As she was phobia of blood, she turned around, grab a clean towel and the car key. She went and asked the guy to press the clean towel on the wound and drove him to a clinic. How did it happened still baffled everyone until this day. It seemed that while he was plucking the coconut, a strip of the "buluh" broke and slid on the pengolan straight to his forehead. It wounded him exactly on top of his eyebrow. He was so lucky that it didn't hit the eyes.....the mere thought shivers the wife till today. So that is the story of a guy who is not allowed to hold or touch anything sharp at the kampung anymore.

#thereyougoPat
#thetalesthatyouwantedtoknow
#heissonotakampungboy9
Was telling my colleague of how I wanted to be a 'pelukis' or 'penulis' when I was small. She laughed out loud when I mentioned 'pelukis'.....well my painting/drawing was hung on the noticeboard twice when I was in Form 3. And so did stories that I wrote for English Club. It was put on the noticeboard too. Anyway she said I am a writer now....writing statuses on facebook. Ok...that is funny...😢😢

#baru2kalidahperasannakjadipicassokonon
#notonlyadiehardromanticbutsillytoo
What am I going to do with you?
If sweet words can be consumed...
I would be diabetics, thanks to you.

You make me laugh.
You make me smile.
Even when my days are rough,
You'll make sure it won't be for a long while.

I would like to thank you,
For always making my day.
Only God can repay you.
May He guide you always....along the way.